I am an idiot. Or, stupid, petty, rant

[zaftig_goddess]

So, I have this friend.  Let's call her K. 

For about 2 years, K and I were very tight, always telephoning, meeting for lunch, etc.

And I know this sounds stupid and petty, but meeting my girlfriends for lunch is really important to me.  Like, unreasonably important.

But I don't get a lot of time to just be with my friends - lunch is a time when I am not hampered by work or children.

(And because judges pretty much never schedule hearings between 11:45 and 1:30, on at least 3 days out of five, it's safe to say I am free for lunch.  Maybe it has to be a quick lunch near the courthouse, but it's doable.)

(For f**k's sake I'm rambling about lunch.)

Anyway, for the last 18 months, K has been continuously cancelling our lunch dates.  Like, we've probably made 18 dates for lunch, and she's actually showed up to two of them.  It had gotten so I started bringing back up lunches to my office on days I had a lunch date with her because I knew she would cancel.

Yesterday, stupid me, I instant messaged her to say good morning, and she said "I figured you'd have given up on me by now." 

I IM'd back, "?"

And she said, "I'm a shitty friend.  I'm trying really hard to make "me" time to keep my stress level down."

So...meeting me for lunch (when we both work downtown, three blocks from eachother) - is stressful?  And she's so busy she can't meet me for some f**king soup?

So, I'm over it, I think.

Until today, her husband's facebook status is a photo of K, at lunchtime, at the YACHT CLUB (so, at least a 20 minute drive from downtown) - having a drink and doing some ridiculous craft project.

So...she's so damn busy that meeting me for lunch a block and a half from her office is impossible on 16 of our last 18 lunch dates, but she has time to drive out to the damn yacht club at lunch time to paint a picture frame???

I'm done.  I am so beyond done.  I'm lucky that I have several other girlfriends who are not assholes.  I'm not sure if I should call her out about this or just let the friendship fade away.  Right now I'm pissed (so I'm typing this, which now that I am re-reading it makes it sound like I am in the 10th grade and not a 30-something woman with a job and a family...Shallow much?)

Sorry if you took the time to read through this whole ridiculous post.  I'm just...mad.  And my feelings are hurt.  (Again hello, am I a grown up or not???)